MY Possessive Mafia Men

MY Possessive Mafia Men

Chapter 157: | Want To Take A Break From Them Chapter 157: | Want To Take A Break From Them Angelia

The three of them had builtup, madecomfortable in my own body and madesee myself in a different

light, a better light. Most importantly, with them, | had been alive. | had been happier than ever and found thrill

and excitement in days that used to be dull and uneventful. And so, thinking of that instead of the what ifs,

made it an easy decision. As cliche as it sounded, they brought colors into my life and | hadn't realized | had

seen everything in shades of gray until they calong. | wasn't ready to let go of the colors, the thrill and the

happiness, | wasn't prepared to let go of my men. So for how long did | have to stay away from them? Because if

there was one thing that would kill me, it would be watching them move on with someone else while | kept my

distance to keep them safe. Of course, | would do it if it meant them not getting hurt even if it would end up

hurting me. It seemed | was just as self-sacrificing as the heroine | had read in books only. | was about a hundred

percent more afraid than they ever were but | never said anything about being a bada***like them. | was only a

girl who didn't t know any better. "We were home!"

Andy’ voice filled the living room, making my heart ache for the scheery feeling | had felt only a few hours

ago. He gavea quick hello before bustling into the kitchen with a grocery bag, followed by James, his

unofficial boyfriend. | had already known he was coming to eat dinner with us for Andy's text had totally

forgotten about it.

"Hi, there, beautiful lady." James grinned atfrom the kitchen, helping Andy with the groceries and putting

them away in the fridge.

"Hi, Jan

James.

How has your day been?" | asked, doing my best to keep my voice steady and normal.

It would be hard keeping shit from my best friend especially since he knewso well but | had hoped he had

shrugged it off asstill being emotional which | guess he would expectto be. "Better now, | have missed

my baby boy like crazy." He said, nodding at Andy. | smiled but it felt strained, knowing | was the reason he

hadn't seen him. James noticed and grimaced.

"I really didn't mean it like that, it is like they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder." He

added.

"lI am also glad that you had him, | know the need for a friend to lean on."

|

1/4

1/4

Chapter 157: | Want To Take A Break From Them

"Yes, he has been good to me." | mumbled.

James didn't know all | the details of what had gone down but | was pretty sure he had pieced together sof it

like the fact that | had been dating three men. Although he hadn't judged me, not once. | turned towards Andy,

who was leaning against the counter with a small smile on his beautiful face but he looked haggard. "How was

work?" | asked and he sighed | tically.

"If I have to work one more shit with Ben, | will end it all."

Ben worked at the cafe with us, he was entitled-and lazy because his aunt owned the cafe and felt he could get

away with anything which was correct. He did get away with not doing shit. | rarely had to work with him. Andy

wasn't as lucky. The last t| had worked with him, goodness, it had been hell. Ben had busted into the

lunchroom while he knew | was changing which was uncomfortable in itself. Still, worse was the look he had

givenwhen Marshall pickedup after my shift. Long story cut short, Ben had askedout on several

occasions and | had given the excuse that | don't date which he now knew wasn't true even though it hadn't

been a lie when

had said it. He hadn't looked too happy about that. | shuddered just thinking about that guy.

"Ehm.. Angelia?"

Shaking off the m***al image of Ben's angry eyes, | looked at Andy who was now staring at the bouquet of

flowers and forgotten dessert chocolate covered strawberries and chocolate cake.

What i is all | this?" he asked but he already knew the answer to that, seeing as he had taken the liberty of

reading one of the notes which were currently in his hand.

| didn't mind, something | figured he already knew. We don't keep secrets from each other, | frown. We didn't

keep secrets and now, though it was inevitable.

"The guys sentapology gifts." | shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal but my heart still bounced around just

thinking about them.

That was until | remembered the other gift | had gotten. | had to steel myself from the fright that wanted to take

over my body again. | couldn't let him know something was wrong. He whistled as he read one of the cards.

"This even makesfall a little bit in love with them." He muttered, making James laugh.

James didn't know much about my men but at the stime, | didn't care if he found out. It wasn't like | was

ashamed, though my mind still cringed a bit out of old habits.

2/4

Chapter 157:1 Want To Take A Break From Them

"Do you want to talk about it?" Andy asked louder

"Not really." | said, if I did, | was afraid | would break down and | couldn't afford that right now. My mental state

was fragile enough already.

"Fair enough but you know | am here if you ever do want to talk.

"Yes, | know. You are a good friend, Andy.*

"You are just as good, girly." He joinedin the living room with a smile but it dipped as soon as he saw the bag

next to the sofa.

What is going on?" His eyes went from the bag to me, his gaze filled with confusion and surprise. | could see

James quietly walking to the bathroom to give us sprivacy.

"| think it is t| got back to my own apartment. | am sure you are missing salone twith your man."

My smile felt stuffy and unnatural but if he noticed, | hoped he thought it was more so because of what had

happened in the past few days instead of what might have happened while he was at work. "That is b***it and

you know it, you can stay for as long as you want." He said, looking about ready to throw my bag back into his

room.

I knew

he wouldn't be a fan ofleaving especially after seeing how much of a wreck | had been. To be honest, | was

sure he would prefer it if | stayed longer.

"I know and | really appreciate it, it is just....| am ready to return to my own place and move on." "What do you

mean, move on? Have you figured out what you are going to do about your men?"

He took a seat bes

a seat besideon the couch and gaveall of his attention but | did notice his eyes sneak a peek once more

at the gifts on the kitchen counter. | tried to ignore his use of words, your men. | guess they weren't mine any

longer, they couldn't be even if my mind wanted to pretend that wasn't the case. Hopefully, when this is all over.

"Yes," | swallowed, my mouth suddenly dry.

"I want to take a break from them. Right now, | need to focus on myself. | just need a few weeks or months to get

myself sorted out." His shock was evident on his face but he reeled it in quickly. "What made you cto that

decision?"

"lI am not sure | will ever get over their betrayal. How can | trust them to be honest withgoing forward when

they have lied tosince the second | met them?" My own lie felt bitter on my 3/4 Chapter 157: | Want To Take

A Break From Them tongue.

The truth was, now that the option had been taken away from me, | could clearly feel how much I still wanted to

be with them. | wanted us to rebuild the trust and move on with them. The notes they had sentthis morning

along with their sweet gifts had warmed my heart to them and the possibility of becoming an us again. It was

only when | knew that wasn't my choice anymore that I realized how unprepared | was to let them go or let what

he had slip through my fingers. Instead of life givinglemons to make lemonade, | got a rock and a fucking

hard place. "Okay," he nodded.

"If that's how you feel." | could see him hesitating as if he had more to say but in the end, he chose not to. "Yes,

itis."

ok

It wasn't, don't getwrong. | was still p***d at them and hurt but | guess spart ofhad never given up

on us. | just needed tto realize that myself. My life had turned into a sideshow consisting of and

thriller and | didn't like it one bit. Why couldn't

everything just be romance and a field of daisies?